Stream+of+Consciousness

mommy says it’s because of the war but that doesn’t make sense how could war do something like that he didn't get shot he didn't get hurt mommy tells me something different broke but i don't know what it was his decision to go to Iraq in the first place he said it was something he had to do he wanted to give back to his country but he left us he left us for nine whole months and now he’s back he should be happy he gets to see us again he gets to see mommy and me and his friends he should be happy why isn’t he happy he isn’t the same daddy anymore he’s changed he doesn’t play with me anymore he startles when i touch him and wakes us screaming when he falls asleep on the couch maybe he doesn't love me anymore that's probably it was it something i did oh no oh no it was me it’s my fault daddy changed my fault he isn’t like himself no no no i did this i ruined daddy and now i can’t fix him i’m the reason why mommy is sad all the time why our family is falling apart why no one can be happy it's my fault daddy can't laugh with us anymore and play catch outside with me like we used to before he left it just doesn’t make sense i’m supposed to be happy he’s back he’s supposed to be happy he’s back he returned home safely we should be overjoyed but now everything is different our family is different daddy isn’t the only one that changed i guess we all did too